I believe I have delt with my fare share of loss. You would think I would have become used to it by now. But loss is a hard thing to get over. Especially the loss of children. Those that are to young to be taken away from us. Those that you figure have yet to truly live. Those that in such a short time become to mean so much to you.
I had first hand experience of loosing a child. Not my own but my niece. That was extremly hard. Then not long after my niece passed away my cousins little boy died from a brain tumor. I have always wondered why some live and some don't. My other cousin had a tumor when he was 11. Now he is 18 and just graduated High School in California.
Brandon's cousin has also lost two children. I could not imagine having to go through the death of a child twice. It seems so unfair.
Recently.....
My cousin Lavon and her husband Sean got married not to long ago. Right after they got married she became pregnant. I was happy for her. At that time I had heard of so many of my cousins pregnant with children. It was kind of bittersweet for me. (I may not have the details correct.) She was due this month sometime I am not sure of the exact date. She went into the hospital May 16, 2009. She was upset because she could no longer feel her baby move. The hospital did an ultrasound and did not hear a heartbeat. They immediately induced her into labor and Launa Mae Allred was born May 17, 2009 2:50 AM. She was not breathing. The text I got said she was born perfect.
Brandon had been talking to my mom and he told me what had happened. I was upset for my cousin. We have lost so many loved ones in our family 3 of which have been children. My mom later sent me a text with a picture of the baby and she looked perfectly healthy. I didn't understand, the text had confused me. She was born just over 6lbs. She looked alive to me. I called my mom all confused and said wait a minute is she alive or not? I don't get it. She said no and I was heartbroken, for my cousin for myself for anyone that has dealt with loosing someone way to early. It is hard to lose any loved one, but those that are taken away from you way to soon, that makes it so much harder to deal with. I am trying to understand the reasons, but with each loss it is getting harder.
I wish my cousin all the love and understanding she can get from this tragedy. And want her to know that I love her and I am always here. I love you Vonnie.
Launa Mae AllredMay 17, 2009 - May 17, 2009
Cameron Mckay Birch
September 8, 2000 - February 12, 2006
Alexis Marie ParryJanuary 4, 2004 - September 23, 2005
These things are so hard. I dont know if you were talking about Tashas babies but they were due within a couple days of both my kids so I know it is so hard for her to see them and to think of what her kids would be doing right now. My sisters best friend just went through the same thing. She went to her 8 month appointment and they couldnt find a heart beat. I cant imagine how it would feel to have to deliver a baby that I knew wasnt alive.
ReplyDeleteI couldn't imagine how hard it would be to loose a child. It has been hard enough to loose people close to me. Yeah I was talking about Tasha. I feel bad for her to have lost 2 little boys. It is hard to see children that are around the age Alexis should be. To deliver a child that was not alive would be heart wrenching. Everyone says its worth it when its over. But to know that when its over it truly is over with that child would tear me up.
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