Going Crazy..... HELP!!!

I have been cooped up for I don't know how long. I really need to get out. I just don't have anything I can really go do. I have to stay close to home because I have got to be drinking something non stop. The best thing I have found to drink is Skim milk. Yes I like Skim. I think it helps that I was grown up on the stuff so "actual milk" is to creamy. But anyway, with this weather I can't very well take milk out and keep it cold or keep it from growing crazy things. Yet if I don't constantly drink the stuff then my stomach gets quite upset with me. I guess it has something to do with the feeding tube and trying to get all the nutrients that gives.

Can't go out and excercise. I need to loose weight, but with the malnutrition I have just gone through my doctor has told me he does not want me loosing weight. Which is a problem because the weight falls off me when I sleep. I go to bed and wake up 2-3 lbs lighter. Which isn't necessarily a bad thing most the time. Just not good for me now. So excercise is out. The heat drains what little energy I have. So going outside during the day is also out.

So I sit inside on the computer playing games or doing facebook. I have found myself to get quite cranky with facebook when it acts up. Which is most the time. So I find myself also watching movies. I would like to start reading again, but I don't know of many good books. Not to mention I checked some out during my first surgery and forgot about them until the other day. So my fine at the library is probably out of this world.

So I guess I am looking for some kind of suggestions to do that could be fun. Something on the computer other than facebook. Or a book to read or good movie to see. The movies I have are getting a little old.

I should only have a week left of this then I will probably be going back to work. I am looking forward to actually doing something with myself. Yet I am also scared to go back because right now I have access to anything whenever I need it. My blood sugar will drop way low and I find myself needing to eat something. Or my tummy will get mad and I find myself needing to put something in it. When you work you don't get those options. Not to mention I have been sick so long and worry about getting sick again when I am not concentrating on my body and its needs. Lets face it when you work you get sucked in and get so busy that your needs come second. At least that is how it has been in the past. In the past I could get away with it. Now I am not so sure. So yes going back to work scares me pretty badly.

But I digress. Books, movies, activities, anything that I could do, that you find fun. Please tell me. I am in need of a distraction, anything, to do.